camellia
I had a dream to put together a show to get you to make up with me. I'd be playing guitar and singing a song and you'd turn to mush inside and get delighted and want to come up on stage to kiss me right there. I love you... I'm simple. I'm an Adam Sandler inside...Sometimes I'm a fool and just want you to see how much I do love you... what can I do to get you to see that?
I am determined to find a way to make a happy ending just like the movies. There just has to be a way right? You are my friend and I love you so much, this is so stupid. I bound to find a way to get your heart back. I will make a fool of my self if it doesn't work but then at least I can say I tried. I was thinking about practicing a song and performing it at a venue that I know that you'll be at one day and hopefully it will spark a seed of love back in your heart for me.
I love the way that we connected like puzzle pieces. Me + You. How can I find that connection because two puzzle pieces will always go together, I miss you.
I wish I had the strength to do something amazing to show you how I love you. I wish I would work and that it would spark a seed of love in your heart to forgive me and understand how much we can be strong together and grow as one.
Double the c double the s and that's how you get success. I wish I could define success for me. I'd be a super star and come where you are, I'd get you close me and we'd both be free. I'd be in my car and we'd go far... you'd be my success and it's you I'd impress.
When I see the same number over and over I can't help but wonder.
What are in our plans, where does the heart stand?
I can't help it anymore... my heart is on the floor.
I don't know what is in store for us. I can't tell the future. I can't tell what may come. But I can pray that one day our plans will collide again. That we'll mix our plans and we'll become one together again. I just have that deep emotional feeling, that we will one day have our paths cross again and it will spark a seed in our hearts to never let go ever again our plans that we used to talk about... the future that we both wanted.
We exploded into the sky and soon we were surrounded by glowing green and blues in the darkness. A warms over came our bodies as we trailed into the galaxy. We looked into each others eyes and I swear from that moment that we were infinite.
I'm sorry I had such an ego that was simply hubris. I really wasn't mad. I really love what you got me. I was just afraid that I would look immature and ended up doing just that by busting my ego out thinking I wanted something else.
I trusted you more than you know. I only wish that doubt didn't come between us. Doubt spread like a wildfire and manifested its way into our hearts. I wish there was a way to come back to you and you back to me. I'm my time of solitude I have thought about how I doubted you and the reasons why and how to over over come those doubts and turn them into trust.
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