captaincaelyn
What I feel right now. What I feel after a long day waiting for you to come home, waiting for your touch...what I feel after battling down my paranoia and all my fear. What I feel after crying on your shoulder. What I feel living with myself.
Trees and forests, the earth and water. The ceaseless rhythm that has pounded the shores for millennia. The quiet building of power beneath the soil, the endless rays of light shining through the galaxy, sending their power to planets one can only dream of.
Sometimes in life things are so hard and so heartbreaking, that one can do nothing more than endure -- no matter how long it may last, you just endure.
A small, terrified fifth grade girl walks into the Principal's office with her fickle, fair-weather friend by her side, palms sweating and hands shaking, cheeks flushed.
"Do you girls know why you're here?"
"Is it about the petition?" the friend asks.
"Yes, it is. I hope you girls realize that it's simply not possible to replace the styrofoam trays with plastic ones -- we would need to buy dishwashers, or hire people to wash them!"
A gang of hoodlums walks down the street; tattoos and faded jeans hanging low, held only by a shoestring. Yelled at, demeaned, kicked out of stores and shunned from civilized society. Punks, outlaws, thieves, crooks...they don't understand though, because they live and die together. It's family.
A sense of overwhelming peace and safety; I realized that God was real when it dawned on me that He is the only one that has ever made my anxiety go away entirely - He is the only one that has ever given me true, unbreakable peace.
Platinum diamond rings - wealth, happiness, fidelity, family, love, babies, holidays...life.
Anniversaries, weddings, kisses, hugs, dances, graduations...
Marriage.
Anywhere in the world? England, Ireland, Wales, Spain, Italy, New Zealand, India, France...all the places I want to go, out of anywhere in the world. It's really an abstract idea though...something can't be anywhere because it's in its designated place...very perplexing.
A phase - everything goes through a phase of dimness; relationships, hope, happiness, health, joy, wealth...everything. But the thing to remember is that nothing goes through a phase of complete darkness - there's always a light, no matter how dim.
What used to be such a strong, central pillar of our society and of our beliefs has become the figurehead associated with corruption, ulterior motives and slanted media views. It's sad that such an exalted position has fallen so low...from George Washington to LBJ.
load more entries
writing since 2011 · 21 entries · 21 days shown up
each square is a day—lit means CaptainCaelyn showed up.
4longest streak
21days written
0.3entries / week
the words CaptainCaelyn reaches for
lovepassionateprofoundlylivemomentmatterunderstandphaseanywherehusbandheartpraygodprotectdierelationships