christcel
It was an opportune moment when i first saw you
you were on your polo shirt, looking dignified
you smiled with innocence and it made me feel my heart again
that time, i didn't have the chance to talk to you but it was as if I've known you for so long
you were the unfamiliar man with familiar heart
i'll look at you from afar, gaze as if mesmerized
i'll be your shadow in a shade, you won't know this exists
until then
until when things fall into place
when you can spell out love without her name
when i accepted that it's not always i who can hold my hands
wait and let go
love is but a rainbow
sometimes it's dark, sometimes it's not
but it gives color to the sky and unicorns do fly
until then
until then, we'll fly
The weather changes every time
like how you want your future be
who you want to be with
life in general, love in general
weather is such a great opportunity
to change, to stay
the weather is hot, sometimes it's cold
indeed life is short
and weather goes by
tomorrow it will change
or maybe now it will
why be sad? the end is yet to come
words had been said
footprints walking away from the door
broken pieces of dreams
shattered hearts
i can only watch you weep
listen to your sighs
empathy is what I have
but there won't be a hint
i'll just peek at your pain
even lift some of your rocks
but you'll never know
i'll just wait for your smile
I can imagine the horror of losing you the way our friends lost their love ones
In this world where somebody can just grab us after some tailgating
I used to worry so much that I would always ask myself how to love someone like you
But I got used to it that I finally accepted that we would end up however we like it
We could die at peace or we could die fighting
As to my surprise, something else died
Our love did
And I am not used to it.
you used to let me step on your feet and lead me to dance with you
you would sing and we would dance like we're prince and princess
we used to have fun while I brushed your teeth and you brushed mine
you used to cook for me even if sometimes I wasn't able to eat it for I am late for class
I used to wait for you and sometimes fell asleep
but soon as you arrived, we would talk happily
you would brush my hair
I would run my fingertip from your nose to your lips
we were happy and in loved
we were a couple.
were.
I was busying myself with the cutlery. I was waiting. I was thinking when or how would I meet you. And then you came. You came with a smile so bright that it lightened my day. I thought i wouldn't find you but there you were. It was you all along.
you used to make a ring when you were smoking
i used to ask you how was it and then i would try
but I wasn't successful, not even once
just like with my attempt to forget you
i wasn't successful, even now
We used to be together
like fertile soil and plant
And now things aren't the same
as if the minerals deserted the land
You have her and I had him
But when we're together again
The tranquil paradise sets once more
Despite the frazzled road we're in now
You will always be the fresh air that blows me
The sun that shines on me
My memory of you is translucent
Past without the details of love
You may have shone light on me
But it will never be as clear as the sun’s
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