christine
In that embrace, all my troubles seemed to fade away. I embraced him as if he would slowly fade away if I didn't hold on tight enough, as if he was the only solid and real thing left in my shattered life.
I always knew you would rise up against all the odds that they had piled against you. I always knew when you had always doubted. I also have always known that one day, you would rise up and surpass me as well. But, I am perfectly okay with this, because I know that you have always been better than me, now I just hope that everyone else can see it as well.
I had always wanted to be a teacher, it was as simple as that. I wanted it therefore I thought that was what my future would consist of. But, one day I realized that I hated school, absolutly hated it; and as soon as I graduated I never wanted to step foot in a school building again. So, just like that, I changed my mind; and the vicious cycle called decisions started all over again.
So many memories flood my mind upon seeing that corner. I can't decide if I want to smile or cry. That corner upon Kings Street, where we shared our first kiss and where we said our first and last goodbye.
I've always wished and waited for the moment when I could just let go and finally forget. Forget everything I've ever done and believed in. But, I understand the world and the rules in which it lives by, so I can understand that this wish is simply impossible. I can never forget.
Sitting under that old willow tree, I couldn’t help but feel like this place was my refuge as the leaves and branches hide me from your view.
How can I be eternally grateful when neither of us will live for an eternity?
I find it odd that i take a strange delight in this. But then I wonder if that's what makes me who I am.
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