ellebee
It may be of no interest to you, but I have decided to make some big changes in my life. The first will be to cut off all contact with you. I realized you have no vested interest in my happiness, peace, or well being. I have thought about this long and hard. I understand you may not like it, but this is really in my own best interest.
We were so entwined. Each aspect of our lives, bound with a tight knot. I never dreamed the ropes of us could become so loose that they just fell apart. Entwined was how I always described us.
It was hard to feel empathy for him. He created this mess, leaving his own wide path of destruction. But I had made mistakes too, and as I stood their listening to him beg for my forgiveness, I knew I would give in.
She tripped on the damn planter once again. "I need to move that," she mumbled under her breath as she searched for her house keys. "Damn bottomless purse! Why can't I get my shit together?"
Can't believe that this is the word! I spent all day yesterday Googling large floor stencil and wondering if I should paint the tile in my house. The colors and designs are overwhelming, but if you stencil, you are truly creating something new.
You switched on me. Just like that - one day we don't speak and you have some one new. Now you want to switch back this way. The problem with the switch is that I never know when it is time for you to change again. Do I throw anymore time and love into someone who is able to switch off?
Shine and get attention. Don't disappoint - anyone. That is how we perform. Put on a show, make them see you that way. Then you may go home and fail in private comfort.
What peace I find when I am resting! And then my mind starts to race about the things I should be doing instead of just resting... and then I don't feel so rested anymore. Maybe I should rest from resting for just a while.
Strong word, pushing and pulling from within - win.
I beat you, I got it, it's mine all mean win. Just seems
crazy because nothing is ever really ours.
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