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He held her gently in his arms in the way that you would expect all knights to do so except the only thing that kept him different from all the other knights wasn't the fact that he had slain the dragon he slain her as well.

I thought I would have it by now. You know, the answer, the solution And that's why I used to love math so much because most of the time, there's an obvious way to solve the problem to find your solution I guess the way the world works isn't a lot like math we get so many factors that we don't consider and we don't consider the answer until we have all the factors.

bury

I want to do this, with so many of my secrets. The ones that I've kept from my family, friends, lovers, hookups, etc. And then I think of what secret hasn't been told. I've shared it with at least one other person, I'm sure. And as long as that holds true, I can't really bury a secret, can I? Not as long as another copy of it is out there. With someone else. So you really wonder whether or not I have secrets at all to bury, or if they're just all floating out there, waiting to be unearthed.

mass

So much production! But is it how much it weighs or how much it's worth? And how do I know what it's really worth? To me To you To He To She To US Mass, unaccordingly to science Doesn't really stay constant, regardless of what THE OBJECT IS. It should be relative.

happy

We could have been, don't you remember? I remember that we were because I could see us being happy together I said to you and that was when you began to cry because you could see it too but I won't know I should have stopped you from walking out that door I think there was a time when you would think those words for me and believe them because I did and didn't want to and that's why neither of us are, any more. Happy.

I like to think of what lies in the realm of possibility, because everything that doesn't... Well, it doesn't exist. I like thinking that anything is possible, or at least the younger version of myself who was told so would like to keep thinking that. Because that's it, isn't it? As we grow, we learn more and more about what is and isn't possible. But as we grow, a part of ourselves, the young part of ourselves, will always hold onto the belief that anything and everything is possible. Within the realm of possibility.

signs

I should look for them, you know? Or maybe it's because I'm always looking for them that I can't tell when they actually just ARE. I guess that's symbolism, looking too hard for something that's already in front of you, pointing you in a direction you should be going but aren't. Are you looking for them?

I'd run them just to find you But what's in a number? A picture's worth a thousand There's only one of you Whom I haven't yet met But it feels like my numbers and dwindling Waiting Looking Hoping for you.

help

I need somebody! They would always sing But I'd always mean Not just anybody! Pleeeeeeease? It's so true! Can anybody find me Somebody to love?

At least you could have one. Actually, you'd have two. Or more. Relationships. I mean, Can't you share? Oh wait, you are But not with me. Go figure that life and relationships Would turn out so very like this.

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Joshua wrote about bury
“I want to do this, with so many of my secrets. The ones that I've kept from my family, friends, lovers, hookups, etc. And then I think of what secret hasn't been told. I've shared it with at least…”

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