kfcayton
why do i always
always have alcohol
...
i am underage
i mean alcohol as the word of course
not coursing through my systems
esther stares at me
with a look of interest as she tries
to repair a gluestick
but it is broken
just like one is, after they finish alcohol.
i have a mole
a birthmark
rather
its been there forever
and ever
and sometimes i look at it
and think
wow, this is cute
others not
its nothing remarkable
but it defines me and
explains me
a part of me
just a tad
touch
drop
of uniqueness
its a mole.
forgotten
and lost and lonely
out in the cold
is how i feel when i am down
down and turning spiraling towards the
hard
cold
desperate ground
i cling to hopes and dreams that dont always come true
like the time i spent with you
can i forget it?
no
it is of too much value
wasted value and prices misjudgement
that you skewed
messed up
ruined
goodbye, mary michael
this is the last.
Vodka was yesterdays word
anyhoo
vodka a drink that comes with age
maturity which i have
but not quite
im hidden like a mask
masked from the world and each time
i take it off
im flooded with emotion
experience
not always for the good
not good for the now
im worried
my worries fall over me
cascading over every inch of me
did i share too much?
do you still know me? like me?
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