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The instigator is the investigator. The one who makes the decision to gaze deep into the mind of someone, to push limits, to dig up what lies under the face of their outer being.
I would like to instill within myself and everyone, a complete sense of not giving a care in the world about the stupidest things that consume our lives. Or something like that. I don't know. I guess really the most important things to instill are a good work ethic and love for your fellow man and cheesy, yet relevant things like that.
Ah sweet decadence, how I would love to savor it. I f I could have it, truly embrace it, I would drink all the Lagunitas beer I wanted. Swim in my many pools on my rooftop penthouse, if I had one. Eat all the fried chicken, watermelon and bbq ribs I could possibly stomach. And the potato salad, can't forget the potato salad.
Late at night just finishing the math placement practice exam and I sure wish it was a piece of cake. Because it was just the opposite. The cake is a definite lie this time. I could use a piece of cake. A piece of red velvet bundt cake would be fucking bomb, but I am trying to cut right now so no more cake. The cake is a lie again.
A believer, a thinker, a prover. If a believer believes enough does that make him a thinker? Will he set out to prove what he believes the same way the thinker will set out to prove what he thinks? Or does the believer found his belief on more abstract ideals such as faith?