mrhappy
it's a little bit defeatist but i've convinced myself that being lonely because i've retreated into myself is better than being lonely despite being surrounded by so many people
when you cannot stop his words from running over and over and over in your mind like a treadmill that won't turn off, you have no control over your heart anymore. the truth is that you are lost and the way he breathes sounds too familiar to be a coincidence
impressionable. easily swayed. the power of a word, a suggestion murmured in passing, planted like a seed, a mine.
she had a smudge of grease on her cheek and her overalls, a faded shade of sky, were torn at the knee. she smiled when she saw me and i wouldn't have cared if the world were ending right then and there. "mind giving me a hand?" she said, pointing to the rusty truck in the garage. i could only nod.
can town
sigh,
soft soft
hand against mine, mother eve pressing
the fruit of life
to my
lips
(the sky rings blue and the harvest is good, again)
tallskinnydirty-blonde granola girl in khaki pants and a faded tank, thinks she's saving the world but really just saving her conscience
new eyes for new sights
wearing 3d glasses on a flat plane and
i’m all awake, wide awake, taking it all in
like i’ve been sleepwalking this whole life.
new eyes and new sights
wearing 3-d glasses in a 2-d realm and
i'm all awake, wide awake, taking it all in
like i've been sleepwalking.
she doesn't think they ever really believed
that they were in love. and she thinks that
that was what hurled them towards the
fallout.
stronger than his lies or her shutdowns
was the ever-present breath of shaky doubt;
a love built on a crumbling foundation.
shady architecture makes for dysfunctional relationships.
and he mumbled names of other girls from
long ago and far away, lost ghosts touching
and touching and touching him, grazing his
lips against theirs. and she hugged her own knees
and stared through him and past him and saw
herself among those phantoms, and also
nothing.
and they crashed down with the ghosts' breath and
they knew.
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