notquiteaghost
she was trying to give you a hint
but you wouldn't take it
left her with her hand hovering in mid-air
like an idiot; like you
because you're an idiot for not listening
when she not-so-subtly told you to bugger off
and for listening when she told you to stay
because now you can't make yourself leave
and you're only making everything worse
and it hurts and
you know a dismissal when you hear one
but that doesn't mean you're going to listen
she wanted you to get brunch with her
but you were too busy saving the world
at least, that's what you told her
you were really saving yourself from her easy beauty
and you were really saving her
from nights spent worrying about you dying a martyr
and years spent wishing she'd never fallen in love
with someone who was paid to risk their life
with someone who never was that lucky and
you were too busy saving the world;
she was your world
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