cbeav
near. it's just an illusion. you never know how close you were to someone until you fly for eight hours and realize you may never see them again.
i'm strung from atop this building. i have no choice but to jump and let go. i want to do this. i need a release. you forced me into this, and i can't dig myself out.
everything is complete when i'm around you. i feel so at home and so secure. i can be who i am and not have to worry about you judging me. i love the way you make me feel.
everything always seems so sudden. just the pressure of everything makes me crack. my indecisiveness causes me to never make a sudden decision. i'm forced into a world where nothing spontaneous happens. why did this happen to me?
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