Fall2Rise
I'd have spent the night with anyone at that point. Anyone that would have had me. I just needed to feel someone close to me, feel that warmth that life had stolen from me. I just needed someone.
Anyone.
And that's what leads to the biggest mistake of one's life.
Don't accept anything, you never know what you'll end up allowing yourself to do.
The long flight to a distant land. Another world to explore and integrate into my self. New experiences, a brave new world.
Culture shock.
I want to go home, this place is wrong, it's not for me, there's no place like home.
I want to go home.
Please.
Sitting at your computer wondering what a bullet tastes like, what a blade feels like, how hard a rope really grips. Day in and day out these feelings, these feelings, these feelings, these feelings.
And then it stops.
It stops when she tells me to.
And I haven't even met her yet. I hadn't. I have.
She's mine, and I'm here for her eternally.
It begins anew.
The flowers bloom, the mature, the grow strong.
They hit their prime and are as beautiful as they are powerful.
But this flower never wilts.
It won't.
This flower is mine, and time can't take it from me.
It's mine until I'm pushing them back up.
It begins anew.
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