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We twirled around the dance floor like nobody's business. The band could definitely carry a tune, and the night was starting off swingin'. I looked great; my dress was newly patched, my hair plaited prettily.
Leap up
divide your souls
and let the conquest
begin.
Take your wrath
and smack the opression
where
it
counts.
Darling, people will
be
lost.
But that's the price
we pay
for freedom.
Without you, I feel like nothing. When dad comes at me with everything he's got, shouting slurs and muffled curses as he bends down to hit me, then I think of you and wonder how life went so wrong. Mom, come back, save me from it, from dad, from myself...
So I had figured you'd been avoiding me. Flat-out not talking to me. and who would want to, anyway? God, you send me into such a state. I should hate you.
But I still get excited every time a notification pops up with your name, my friend.
And I realize
it's pure notion
not emotion
that's driven me away from any sort of realization.
I can take leaps of opinion, and think that becoming your friend wasn't right. That it was strange, not normal.
Then again, I am very much strange and not normal and enjoy it with the utmost sincerity.
It took so much for me to leap away
from you
and you threw it all away
in just a day
I hate how you
can never hear the subtle screams
of my generation's inclination to be the oh-so-suble hero of the day.
So I posted this Facebook status. It's directed at you, love. I'm happy with myself, and if you're not, well, it hurts but I can't change that. Lovely, I miss you, you're my best friend, but there's something between us now, something bad and wrong and sad...
For the last time, this is it.
I don't care how much you plead for me not to jump, I've had it. When Roy died, I stayed because you begged. Same with Catalina, same with Arthur, same with Troy. I'm sick of life, sick of this world, and I'm ready for Death's cold embrace.
Deep into the lonely abyss
I subside
my lovely
my darling
oh, don't let me
you let me
fall, you cheap
ignorant
fool.
You let me go
you shouldn't have
i hate you
i hate you.
Holding me back is the first step to an eternity together,
lovely.
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