hellroom
retreat to a old memory.
There's happiness.
I'm playing cards with my father
my three brothers are there
We are happy.
Retreat to an old memory.
My mom is crying.
I'm playing russian roulette with my life
No one is thankfully there.
At that moment after, none was happy.
I hardly breath anymore,
Shit what do i do
Where do i go
I'm lost in my own mind
Help
HElp - I can't find the reason
What reason?
Reason for help myself, for being alive
......
I cannot see it.
There's hardly me inside anymore,
only despair
and
scared little girl.
i fell to the ground, and it held me like no other.
Who will cry over my dead body, next to other solders who also has fallen.
I fell to the ground, and the ground swept my and my brothers.
There were no people to cry on.
there's no words in my world.
Worldly isn't a word what i could use of me.
What are they, really? Just screams in the wind.
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