jujeruthm
i walk in
furtive glances
sweaty palms
his too, i think
we're meeting "casually"
to get to "know each other"
but we both know
this is really
an interview
will you fit with me?
will you be good?
will you last?
will you do what no one else has
will you
be my forever?
you transform me
with your
golden eyes
dark heart
i look at you and i feel myself slipping
away
i thought i'd be new
gilded
full of love
beaming
but now i'm laying on the floor
stripped of myself
transformed
there was a blemish on her heart
no one could see
there were only dashed hopes
if she could only be
she'd found a love
to make her whole
but instead it felt like
daggers in her soul
she cried out, helpless
what could break this spell, this
hurt
she weeps
You gave it to me, because that's what i deserved.
Right?
Or maybe it's not so black and white.
Maybe it's all blurred in the dark of night
maybe i need a fix to help me find
the reason i've wasted all this time
on something that'd only hurt me anyway-
that's not what i deserve.
Right?
he prints the letters on her mind
indelibly
day by day
with a patience known only to those raised in the country
not waiting
just absorbing
he soaked in her beauty
her essence
all the while
writing himself on her heart
in an ink that could never wear off.
the passion in his look was almost enough to blot out the
darkness of her deed
she knew it was too late
but how could she ever change it
vindicate it?
his poor heart would be torn to pieces,
torn and battered and
all for his passion
i caught my breath
they caught me
my world comes crashing, crashing
my hopes being dashed
my mind is spinning
will i come out of this?
is there a light at the end of this tunnel or
is it only a dark spiral
leading me away
farther than i can
come back from
this is my
punishment
her sadness swept down like a black plague
covering her
assaulting her
blinding her like
a merciless cloud of
winged creatures
her lids fluttered
she dropped slowly the flowers in her hand
and fell to the ground
expecting...babies?
he crushed me
with his soft smile
with his
gentleness
i breathed in his essence
we were crushed together
pieces of me branded into him
and he into me
forever
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