katelyn11
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Why can I never perform in front of an audience without getting unbearably nervous? But it's only when I'm alone. Chorus concert? No problem. Band concert? No problem. Piano recital? No way. It's just so nerve wracking, my hands literally shake before I go up on stage. Neither of my parents get it, and maybe they never will...it's just too much stress, everyone focused on me. Does anyone feel that way too?
Shape. The shape of my body, so unsatisfying. I'm working on it. I'm not fat, but I'm definitely not skinny. Somewhere in between. Not happy with myself. I'm trying to be better. To feel good about the shape of my body. To be able to wear clothes that show my curves instead of baggy ones that hide them. I'm working on it.
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