Liriai
my mind is slipping again
i don't know what to do
i can feel my control
slip, slip, slip
i'm so scared
it's dark here
i need you back
you are my light
without you there's only blackness
and all i can do is slip
and fall
i was a very good liar.
i had joined a theatre class when i was six years old, and i had stayed until i was 18. throughout those years, we did several improv exercises. after years of those, i could make up lies like they were honest truths.
however, i had never lied about something like this.
Sometimes I wonder how different life would be if our situations were flipped, if you were in love with me while I was oblivious to you.
I would certainly want you to tell me instead of hiding from it like a scared child. But I guess that's all we are. Scared children.
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