maddiep4nts
I was a decoy for him. I was just something to use to distract himself from his ex. That's all. I'm not real. I do not exist. I am simply a decoy. A fake. I know it and it hurts, but I can't say no. I can't end it. Because he makes me happy. And knowing I can help him makes me happy. My heart hurts.
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