melanallen
Smiling is hard to do when you're in such a bad mood. Thinking that you're not going anywhere, that your worthless and have nothing to live for. Smiling is the last thing I want to do right now.
You are my beloved. I am so happy to know you but am sad to never see you. I hear from you through ear but not from mouth. You are like a ghost of my past and future but never my present.
I rise up in the morning knowing that something great is coming towards me. I think today I will meet the person that will change my creativity, the way I laugh, and what makes me smile.
Sometimes I forget the way you laugh or smile. I forget some of the things we did. I try to remember the look you had on your face when you used to look at me. I've found the fine line between forgetting and remembering.
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