nellbell09
i feel so contained within my own mind....demons screaming...myself suffering. and my mind being pulled into many different directions. Why can't I ever be happy with my self...why can I ever release myself and just be me...and not feel so contained within my relationship, work, and school life.
too fat
too black
too ugly
don't talk black enough
don't love hard enough
yell too much
to hard enough
too much woman
too much emotions
too much hate
too much regret
too much heart
i often feel like since I have been born that I have been judged...its sorta of hard to ever really be yourself when your every single move is judged. The first born child always has plenty of responsibilities and now with my new family I'm finding that I'm cracking under it .
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