sable113
Underneath there are things hidden. Lies, broken hearts, memories that want to be forgotten. You can never know what is underneath, but never just look at what's on the surface.
Ugh, I HATE braces. Why can't teeth just naturally be perfect and straight? Instead we have to go through years of pain and discomfort. The ache that lasts for days when you get your braces tightened. The self-consciousness in your metal smile. The awkward flossing in between wires and rubber bands. It's all so ANNOYING.
You do not care.
I can feel my heartbeat in my throat, in my toes, in my fingertips. My chin is against my chest, and my breathing sounds hollow. My legs are poised on the starting blocks. My fingers ache with the effort of holding my weight up and my arms shake. Nervous excitement flutters in my stomach. The starter says "Set," and I raise myself up, my whole body straining to go. I exhale, and the gun goes off.
And I begin to run.
When I was little, I thought the world revolved around me. Everything was mine if I wanted it. I claimed things for my own, and if I wailed loud enough I would always get them back. But I've learned that not everything is mine, and I can't lay claim on everything I see.
I think of the time we had together, and I smile, because I know what we had was good. And I know that you're in a better place, and that you're smiling too. Because you won't let anything get you down. That's just who you are. You believe in people. You believed in me. And that's what made me love you.
But now you're gone. We are no longer together, but I still love you.
We will always be together in my heart.
I am so alive.
I can feel everything; the wind blowing through my hair, my toes curled on the wood floor, my arms flung out wide.
I am unstoppable. I am free. I am wild.
I am alive.
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