useyourcharm
The rain came down in sheets, my wipers barely effecting the view through the windshield. I'm late, I'm late, I speed up trying to make it to the office before the security guard locks up. I can't leave it there, they'll find out everything. I thought back to the text on my phone, the photos, the mistakes I made. A screech-
I see you in the corner of my eye. I'll be living my life, not a care in the world, and I see a flash of what I'm sure has to be you. My breath stops and my heart drops. I thought I had forgotten the way you effect me, I thought everything we had was locked away and cemented over by a false recollection of tragedy. I still miss you, no matter what I say. I still miss you. No matter what I don't say.
I saw her standing over me, sunlight behind her, making her face unreadable. "What are you doing," she asked, her nose scrunched up in curiosity. "I'm dreaming, maybe of you, but more likely about food". "That's stupid". She kicked dirt at me until I sat up. Her freckles were luminous against her skin. "well maybe you shouldn't hover then".
The algae clung to my feet as I stepped in the lake. The lake you knew I hated. I hated nature, everything about it. I was always a prissy little thing, and you knew that, but you also knew I was too proud to back away from a challenge. I waded out to you and hated you with every fiber of my being, while loving you more than ever.
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