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I want to flail. I want my whole body to just spew out movements, completely uninhibited. I want to be able to allow myself to experience that kind of release. I want a cleansing flail.
Is it awkward if I flail? Will I be instantly judged, condemned to a lifelong nickname of something like "seizuring-octopus", or something a little phonetically simpler but with the same sort of impact?
Stop. I see you. You don't need twinging trembling extremities. I see you. Cut it down. Be simple. I see you.
I flailed my whole body around, just trying to get him to care about the words I was spewing. It didn't really matter. I could have been covered in neon sparkly body paint. My father still wouldn't see me.
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