awesomeismaryn
I wondered what it's like to be somebody. To have a name for yourself, to have something to your name. I wondered what it would be like to have somebody to love and to hold, to have somebody to care for you. I wondered, right before i started the bathtub, right before I got out my friend for the last time.
theforestwasdensewithtrees.itwashardtosee.ikeptrunningintobranches.nowisthetimeiwishihadmypowersback.iswear,onceigetmyhadsonhimi'llkillhim...iswear.
i pressed his hand against my heart. it was warm. i felt a chill go through my body. i love him, i thought. i really do. i shouldnt, but i do. i looked into his eyes. he blinked a couple times, and kisses me on the forehead. i really do love him.
i finally conviced him. it took a lot, but he gave it. sure, this is probably the stupidest thing i will ever do, but who cares, right? im a teenager, im suppose to do stupid stuff. he stuck out at 2:41, when i knew for sure my parents were asleep
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