backrowkings
i keep steadfast and strong
amidst the a world that seems so wrong
i cling to you in an unending light
forget me not for i've too much to loose
i watch you watch me
trembling hands and a unsteady words
you are everywhere and i am nowhere
you scare me, undoubtedly
but you keep me alive
why i allow you to remain?
i'll know when i survive
i wish the words would pour out from my chest
but i keep them locked because i am selfless
because i would rather let my insides corrode my outsides
than to let us rot from the outside in
anyone would call it a sin
but i just call it
stalling
you spat words at me
you swung fists at me
you tore my insides out
and left me beaten
so i told you i loved you
the sad part is i meant it
pull me apart
Sections are all you'll determine
Get a head start
You'll find secrets forbidden
Of failed promises and double sides
I'll leak the blood and the bile
That I couldn't stifle
Cut and pin me to a base
And stay calm as you uncover the mask behind the face
unexpected to say the least
I'm at the fault of him, that beckoning beast
the folds of memories in his eyes
I told you I hated him
I told him I lied
to be loved by you
through cracked cement and bellowing clouds
I pray for confliction among the worry-trodden tracks
of daylight in my retinal memory
when we were young there was nothing more
and nothing less
than
to be loved by you
if you're thriving in past dwellings
here's a boost to shoot you into the future
this is as official as I'll ever be:
never sell your soul to harmony
jetstream
wheeling
holding on to youthful feelings
breathing in the dull incense
watching wings flutter amidst the sky
you and I
you and I
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