cais
He thinks about her constantly
He wants her
with
around
inside
between
everything that he ever was or is.
He believes in her
her everything.
It's not ending
It's beginning.
as is everything and anything that fills his soul and spills into his eyes.
their full
full of red
and blue
and her.
It's not that I can't see it
I know it's there
Well, it's not.
You don't see me like you used to.
Or maybe you never really did.
I understand that.
I get it.
We just aren't meant to be.
You'll never love me like I love you.
Yeah, it hurts sometimes to realize I'll never be with you.
But hey, it's fine.
I'll survive.
Because this right here is real.
There's a million places I'd go but only one place I belong. I've learned this now. It isn't home, either. This whole earth... it's just a visit. I'm visiting this planet, this life, this universe. I don't belong here. I've never belonged here. I've accepted that, but I don't know what to do about it.
Except get the fuck out.
My mind collapses
breathing hitches.
It's all blue now
blue blue blue
lips to eyes
I'm blue because of you.
You break me down
tear me to pieces.
The walls I build crumble to dust and you smile
I smile.
There's a whimper in the depths of my mind.
You destroy me.
I can't understand it sometimes
my love for your voice
I wish it could wake me from this sleep I put myself in
but I know it won't.
It just gives me something to dream of.
something to yearn for
I simply want to hear you say it.
say it please.
It's beautiful, you're voice. It's the most amazing sound my sinful ears have ever been blessed with. The bass, the smoothness of it... There's nothing I could say that would ever be able to describe the beautiful perfection that is your voice. I simply love it.
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