eatondevon
I feel smashed, constricted, stuck between the two mighty walls of my life, my friend and my lover. How can I be asked to choose? How can I bear loose one or the other?
Stronger than I anticipated, my feelings that is. I never thought I'd reach this point, fall so deep down the rabbit hole, but here I am, with constricting walls to sheer to scale. I guess my only choice is to keep going down, deeper, darker, more intense.
My mind is a one-track, no branching, no stops along the way, my methods straightforward, angry, steaming, unstoppable. Life is train, get on board.
Teach me to love and I'll never ask to know another thing.
Love? I can't teach you to love. I can only teach you to see what you already know.
Voices, noise, a static in your head like a radio in a storm. You can't concentrate, can't think. How could the world come to this?
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