kaitierosee
tilt your head
see under my bed
under my comfortable mask
it's a dirty task
to see the hidden truth
different than you once knew
this is what i have to hide
you just have to look inside
tasteless and deceiving. I have heard the truth hurts, but put out in such a flat and cold manor, I'd rather live in my own web of lies.
my thoughts are unclear, thoughts of you like a mist, a fog clouding my mind. i see you everywhere, in everything. you've completely consumed me.
a thousand birds flying overhead. running from something we can't see. their instincts tell them where to go, maybe we have the same insight, but we refuse to listen. so we're stuck in the bitter cold while the birds are where they should be.
buried and trapped. there are lies and insecurities suffocating me and i feel nowhere near the surface. i try time and time again to break through this endless sea of doubt but i remain under the black water filling my lungs with the poison.
i can't even comprehend the words that he said. i stood there, frozen solid unable to move. stunned by the razor blade words, i buried it deep inside not letting any feeling surface. i stood there as stone and he'll never know it hit me.
detached myself from the poison i used to carry. cutting myself off from the darkness i found comfort in. i find myself letting go from the life that used to kill me, and falling deep into a new kind of light, and i'm letting gravity take me down.
what will get through the walls you've built? i dream to blast them down and find your heart. no matter how buried or bruised it is, i will tear down these walls and find you love
tied up and kept in the boundary lines. for years i've tugged and pulled and try to be free of what holds me back. now i lay down drained of all my hope knowing these chains will never break.
nothing is pleasing me. nothing is satisfying. no taste is desirable and no touch is invigorating. nothing is enough.
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