Operator
There are frequent fires in my part of the world. Most come in summer, around Christmas time. I once drove through a fire, fire-crews were battling a blaze on either side of a road and I drove through. Having these gigantic 4 meter flames on either side of the car was amazing. It was like driving into the underworld.
Christmas this year is actually going to be one to remember. I wasn't home last year, and I feel that the presents I have gave them were lacklustre and lazy. This year though I have put thought, effort, and emotion into what I am giving my parents. This year is the year that I actually tell them how much I love them and how much they mean to me.
You sate my sexual appetite. Can we do it again?
Games are only fun when you know the rules and when you know who's likely to win. Right? Bullshit. How fucking dumb can you be? Games are the best when you don't know the rules and when winning or losing doesn't matter.
Five fingers on each hand, five toes on each foot. I wonder what it's like to lose one? I wonder if you can still feel it years and years later, I wonder if you forget sometimes that it's not there. My grandfather was missing half of one finger; I was always amazed by it. It seemed so strange.
Should he or shouldn't he? Pull the trigger I mea. The super-soaker was heavy in his hands and his girlfriend sat sunning herself just meters away... this is really living.
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