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His talons sunk into the baby rabbit as i watched. I wondered if I should feel sad. Remorseful. The bunny was dead but the hawk had the same right to live too right? Where does it cross the line between right and wrong? Where does anything? Sometimes I wish life could be just black and white. That make everything so easier. Why gray? Why maybe? Why someday? Black or white. Yes or no. Now or never.
I looked up the word offset today. It's a verb that means to counteract or place out of line. Like you do whenever you argue with me and i can't understand why. You confuse me more then anyone i've ever met and i can't decide if i like it or not. Offset is my new favorite word.
I don't like to be defined by anyone or anything. No person can know me well enough to define me. No machine. Nothing. To fully know me you would have to be me. And even then you can't describe a person with one word. I don't understand why people try.
Sometimes i really wish I could dissapear. Vanish into thin air. Without a trace. Without a tack. Where would I go? Wherever I want. No one could stop me. Not one person. Then I go back to earth and I know that i can't and the scariest part is that I can't decide if I really want to or not.
Everything always spirals out of control. Theres always chaos always disorder. I like it that way. Much more fun don't you think? Besides control never last forever but a spiral goes on and on and on and on. No beginning no end.
I don't understand wavelengths. I don't understand you. I know wavelengths are waves taht are sent to our eyes and our ears. I know that when they reach you you see a picture or hear a sound. I don't know how that works or why it won't work for me. No one seems to see me or hear what i have to say. A little attention would be nice. It would make my day.
If i confide in you, its not because i love you. I love a lot of people. If i confide in you it doesn't mean i trust you. I trust a lot of people. If i confide in you it's not because i care about you. I care about lots of people. If i confide in you its not because you mean a lot. Lots of people mean a lot to me. If i confide in you it's because i respect you and like you too much to lie. I don't like and respect a lot of people.
Orphans. Sad people. No one who loves them. No one who cares. Constantly looking for the someone who will. There is an orphan in all of us. Looking for someone who cares. Don't worry someone will. Good friends never leave never say goodby never take off. Good friends only leave when they know there is someone else besides them who cares. That someone is you. All you have to do is start caring.
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