SamCat
My feelings are amplified.
I don't know how else to describe it. Everything I feel, I feel it more.
I'm not irate, I'm raging.
I'm not blue, I'm desperately miserable.
I'm not cheery, I'm ecstatic.
One day, one day my feelings will simmer and settle and the calm will be amplified.
One day...
I clasp my hands to my head. It's pounding, it feels like my brain's throbbing will shatter my skull. The lights are too light. All sounds are too loud. Oh for blessed darkness and quiet.
The sunlight blinds me. Hot and glaring.
I can't see what I wanted to see.
So I look down at the water, and I see me.
It's all in the details.
The bigger picture is a grand old thing, but it's the details that make it so.
This I know.
I'm not the person I used to be,
I'm just a facsimilie.
Once I laughed, once I cried,
Now I just smile and sigh.
'Mercy' she cries...'Mercy!'
The torture! Oh the pain! She's all but doubled up...with laughter.
Tickling...A horrific thing, she laughs, then punches. She just wants it to stop.
I always wanted to date a stuntman. Or stuntwoman. Never wanted to be one though, mostly because I'm so clumsy. The stories would be amazing.
I'm always in two minds about Scuba diving...I would love to do it, see the colours of marine life. But I'm also nervous of deep water...very much so. It's another thing I have to do. Fight another fear.
I love marine animals. They're so diverse and colourful and so perfectly adapted to their surroundings. I often attempt swimming so at some point I can go scuba diving and see them.
Birds remind me of my brother. He was always obsessed by the feathery little things. And my granddad who would burp and say 'Bye bye blackbird'. I don't know why, I think it's a Yorkshire thing.
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