slipnslideski
one for another
like or as
compounded for a new
toadstool for this other
something unseen
but simile
sqatting
you are extended
It's twisted
and windy
Like that swirly straw you love so much
But I got caught up
around the third bend
Like that soda you said you still tasted
I never moved an inch
and you never said a word
But I guess it's called complicated
onety-one
one day
twoty-two the other
seventeen and a half
and you still need your mother
then suddenly you're
a we, family
and it happens
you
still
need
her
the little things
that all add up
the odds and ends
the daily tasks
the ordinaries
the endless lists
you're just the same
but i'd never call you a chore
Only sixteen and
addiction
rehab
to go (as far as we know)
She quit smoking
Trying to save herself (at least we hope)
But her body never gave it up
Stuck in eternal self destruction (cyclical and never-ending)
Fingers grazing palms
Prayers for answers
Sandpaper to the touch
Efforts with coarse grain woods
Rather than
Courses on poetry
Gave him no serenity or completion
Nothing finer, smoother
Living in this college town
Pretending to be
Perched on the cushions
Looking up every minute or so
Listening to that recorded laughter
Of those deceased
You entertained yourself
Quiet introspection
Artistic self-reflection
You never laughed at the sitcom
An ending
To what has always been
That exhilarating jump
The soft whiteness
Your icy breath
My name in your mouth
My inability
The anatomy that doesn't quite
Serve, Persist
I cannot speak
As you rant and rave
On the error of our ways
What can never be again
For fear of heartbreak
Long distance impossibilities
But you have no idea
The heartbreak
You've already created
So I sit
As always
Quiet
She finally saw
After hours of searching
The fluttering
In this cathedral
Perfection in a place
Of worship
She watched the bird
Caught up, praying even
In the rafters
Trying to escape
He was braver than she
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