alliecat808

alliecat808

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Accordian playing in the background. My heart pumping blood. My eyes searching, searching, searching for something... you.

bench

As I sat on the bench on that cold winter night, my hands were shaking on my lap. I thought to myself, what have I done!? I just left the one sole thing in my life that made me happy, that cared about me, that completed me in every way. I left him standing there on the sidewalk, just staring after me as the wind whipped by. And for what? A big house? A new job? A shiny car? A future that I have no idea will work out? What can be more important then love? Nothing. That's the answer. I have to go back. If I don't, then someday I may not have someone to go back to.

"This night was sparkling, don't you let it go. I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home, I'll spend forever, wondering if you knew, I was Enchanted to meet you..." ~ Taylor Swift, "Enchanted" <3

"You have Lilly's eyes." "I know." ~ Harry Potter ftw <3

I honestly don't know how much more complicated it can get? Even with thorns pulling at me from all angles, no matter what I'm going to escape.

This reminds me of The Hunger Games, because there is a girl named Glimmer in the books. I love The Hunger Games, I honestly cannot get enough of it, and cannot wait for the movie. I know I'm just rambling but really I can't think of any other things for this word.

I stumbled a bit and almost lost my balance. I watched as a rock, much bigger then my trembling heart, fell down, down until it was nothing but a fleck of gray in the river. That can be me, I thought. That can be me. Just another body floating in the endless sea of life. Maybe I don't want to be "just another body". Maybe I want to be different. And this is the only way I can think of to make that come true. My foot had finally fallen from the side of the bridge, and I was free at last. All I remember is falling, falling and never quite reaching the light.

hehe this word makes me laugh. Cactus's are wonderful :)

yuuuuuuummmmm:) <3

"Oh, you look nervous. Is it the scars? You wanna know how I got em'? Come here. Hey! look at me. So I had a wife. She was beautiful, like you. Who tells me I worry too much. Who tells me I ought to smile more. Who gambles and gets in deep with the sharks. One day, they carve her face. And we have no money for surgeries. She can't take it. I just want to see her smile again. I just want her to know that I don't care about the scars. So... I stick a razor in my mouth and do this...to myself. And you know what? She can't stand the sight of me! She leaves. Now I see the funny side. Now I'm always smiling!"

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on this day 15 years ago

Allie wrote about root
“I stood rooted in place as he turned toward me, and looked up at me with such loving eyes, a look of pure happiness as he said, "I love you. And I always will." He slowly got down on one knee and ask…”

the words Allie reaches for

lovebeautifulrulesmatterwaitcannoteyestryingnowwordforeverscarsrememberlivingcoldbody