avanjari5
coated in an oppressive insecurity. unsure where im wanted where im needed. where im welcomed. coated with uncertainty. with fear. with despair.
you brushed my hand away and turned away to face the window. it was your last day. the last morning you would spend with me in bed. naked, warm and together. but you brushed me away. preparing yourself to be forgotten.
it was when i opened my eyes to hear you breathing next to me. it was when you turned over in sleep and held on to me. night terrors or the physical memory of me; it was simply when you held me close. claimed me for yourself.
vines snaked down the chimney, across the wooden floor and right into her throat. they dug their nails into the sides of throat and crawled into her soul.
I missed you like you were mine. I missed the bus when you left to go fight the war. I missed the chance to let you love me. I missed the opportunity to let you fall in love with me. I missed you like you were mine. I missed making love to a beautiful person. I missed our goodbye.
Escape - what I would give to attain it now. I have been running around town, and spent a night in the ER with my mother. And all I've wished for is escape. I'm too young and too selfish to have to be by her side when she's so sick. For now, my escape will have to be the new books I bought - my only escape for the past eight years.
brown and big. never seen one in real life. bear bear bear. beer. beer is always good. i like drinking beer.
order, the ruination of humanity. it's a false hope and trick that all of humanity has fallen for. order sustains humans.
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