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Is the way I secretly feel when something is so good and then I sabotage my feelings undetectable to other people? I tell myself it is, but what if it isn't?
It was a simple choice. I could either choose to stay here, or choose to go back. And I thought going back was the answer, but then I realized, the past is the past and I am where I am for a reason. It's simple.
The object of my affection. Isn't that a movie or something? I think it's called something else, but do you know what I'm talking about? The one with Jenn Aniston and Paul Rudd? It was basically the only non-funny movie that Paul Rudd was in.
Under the moon, under the stars, under the great big sky. It's literally been forever since I've just laid down outside and stared up at the never-ending sky full of beautiful stars and designs and mysteries and wonder. That's one of the few places I am truly at peace and in awe.
I always hear people talking about shopping locally and giving back to the community by shopping with local vendors. There is this awesome local art shop in Normal that I'm obsessed with. I've bought a few things and I'm obsessed with them. Yay for me, giving back to the community!
Soon I will be free. Soon I will be an adult in the real world with no college to hide behind. Soon I will have to take responsibility for myself and get a job, pay all of my bills, figure out what I want to do with my life, fail, succeed, balance myself, and be happy. Soon. I am free.
I volunteered at this event for The Baby Fold called Festival of Trees. It was through the club I was in at the time, Circle K. I was in Circle K back in Ohio but the ISU version of the club in Illinois just pissed me off. It was unorganized and cliquey and no one in the club seemed to actually care. It was like they just did dinky service projects for the credit and hours. No one put any meaning into it.
Everyone wants to beat the odds. and in general, people use the phrase in the most generic sense. "i'm going to beat the odds and graduate from college", when in reality so many people graduate college. i don't know. that phrase bothers me. it's not about proving people wrong or proving "life" wrong. just work hard.
i was a basketball player my whole life and then i tore my acl my junior year. sometimes i like to say that my career ended then but it didn't. i played my senior year but it wasn't the same. i just wasn't a starter anymore and i was pulled out after one mistake. i try to blame it on my coach. i think it was a great deal of no respect on both of our ends.
Princess Kaley, oh how you are a character. You were very unpredictable to me at first, with your seemingly innocence and good girl vibes, but your story got my brain moving. Something didn't add up to me, but I let you be. And then I saw what you became. Still a princess, but conformity engulfed you. Sin and good graces, that you are, Princess Kaley.
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