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Brewed feelings I have today.
Brad came today morning to tell me that he's leaving. I was hoping that would never happen.
He can go whenever he like and I
I have to stay here
Forever.
being a divider wasn't easy
separating people
from other people
or their dreams
or life itself...
But someone had to do it,
And it turned out to be him.
stop bargaining he said.
i can't she said, that's what i do
you just need to stop bargaining and listen he said
because then, only then you can see what's really going on
what is important and what is not
what you can achieve without being have to negotiate.
never stop the coach yelled
never stop if you do not want to get back to the shit hole you came from
how could i ever reject that?
her sister was sleeping peacefully
like the house full of relatives
but unlike all the others she
could never sleep before seeing the sea
burning trees, burning birds
flames and smoke filling the earth
escape is hard with running on dirt
but we should go or we'll get burned
they were enemies.
big, scary, red enemies
with their hateful glances
and sweet faces.
they were known as lifetime enemies.
bowling was my favorite activity with him.
he took me bowling two times a week, tuesdays and fridays
i used to wait for him those days and kept thinking about his words on the others
i've never been to one since
tornado of my mind.
you and me and the cows
everything is everywhere
and everywhere is full of mess
you know who did not show up
to the last minute of their fight.
listen. listen. listen. listen. what do you hear? the trees? the spring? the snow?
closed boxes and closed hearts.
the world is close and cold and wise.
but you my friend are the only red around.
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