fallingfaster
there is no certainty in my decision
there is no certainty in this ending
even though you said there is
i am still uncertain
i know with all certainty that i loved you
that i love you
that i once did and always will love you in at least one degree
that you gave me the greatest gift,
which was learning how to love me.
how can girls be so malicous
so ficticous
so vindictive
towards girls they hope to call sisters
how can girls not act like what they say they believe in
make promises they can't pull through in
get a guys hopes up and then leave him
i slept for 5 hours and felt fine
i've slept for 12 hours and woken up dazed and confused
i've slept over your calls
and your calls
and your calls
and awoken to you at my door
it was the best sleep
where my dreams manifested into your appearance
my worries are like fields stretching as far as the eye can see
you are the reaper of my fields
you work hard day and night
in the rain and the burning sun
you yank from the roots
you till my land
you open me up for better things
i cant
i dont even want to anymore
in stead of looking at how far we've come
we look at how far we have left to go
why?
i mean why is a life a staircase you have to go up anyway
anyone whos lived can tell you the path isn't going to be straight and narrow
i thought i'd be a good enough influence
i thought all that i could do well would rub off on you
i figured when we started becoming each other, you'd take the best parts of me
i thought our minds would get on the same track
walk at the same pace
hum to the same tune
but we're not there yet
when i finally put the pieces together
the me between two bouts of her together
the fact that we were never supposed to be together
being cheated on stings at least a little bit forever
i think waters where its at
got a water bottle for christmas
new years resolution is to stay hydrated
stay healthy
stay purified
water is life
life should be healthy and pure
it is my tradition
i will make it my children's tradition
to break tradition when they see fit
for the only thing that is truly tradition
is that the never ending progress of time
does not allow for tradition
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