krystalr

krystalr

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You hold me like old memory I've become You see me as the smudged colors You've tried the polish You've used the cloth But never will your attempts ever heal My tarnished soul

watch

Watch the clock now. tickticktick. Running out of time, too slow. Beep, beep, beep. Game over.

The atmosphere reeked of formality. I yearned to grab his hand, to close the gap, but expectations forbid it. Only a few more hours, then I can go back to my jeans and sneakers. I can survive this: Shoulders back, Mouth closed, Pretty and open Nod and smile. Repeat.

Is there really any breaking involved When your heart has supposedly been shattered? It feels more like a paper being burned. Slow. Curling. And then bright and fast. Nothing to piece back together afterward, Only the ashes that are left behind.

punch

It was a punch to my gut. Broken. Apart. I wanted to ask why but that would have make me have to face the fact that I was caught off guard, that I didn't know where we stood. It was a surpirse, the worst one in the world.

tilt

Pin ball. Whack. Shink. Tossing, spinning, falling, flying. Smack. Ding. Pin ball.

Ring Ring Ring Answer Or just silence the persistant noise My ring finger slid down the button, quiet. Que my recording... Please leave a message after the beep. .... Beep.

blast

saved

All the time I wonder If you ever really knew, How bad off I was Before I was saved By you.

I created the opportunity. I had all the moves choreographed. Everything was planned. It was all, Perfect.

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writing since 2010 · 23 entries · 22 days shown up

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on this day 16 years ago

krystal wrote about near
“My heart beat sped as he drew nearer. Almost there. Almost here. Almost within shouting distance.”

the words krystal reaches for

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