MaciM
The scent of copper
Fills her mind
She didn't know how much blood there was
In a body
But there was so much of it
Far, far
Too much
To ever put back in
The way it pooled at her knees
And covered her hands
As she froze there
Over him
It had been an accident
Only an accident
To decompose
Is thought to mean break apart
Or degrade something
Until it is unrecognizable
But in it's simplest form
It means to undo
To wash away what was once there
So that something new may grow
And on that thought
I think it's time
For myself to
Decompose
Alone
In a quite place
A safe place
Full of wonder
Mystery
Joy
Heartbreak
Where I can forget my life
And all the problems
It is surrounded by
And instead
Take up the life of a hero
Or a villain
Or maybe somebody who just isn't me
Secluded
Lost in the pages
Lost in another world
Shy and quite
She sits in a corner
Looking
Observing
At the people around her
Who smiles
Who laughs
And who
Doesn't
Taking in everything
Carefully though
So as not to get hurt
By what she believes the people are
Until someone gets too close
And she lets them in
When she doesn't act quiet so shy
And she begins to hope for
Hope
But she is always proven right
And she is cast aside for someone better
So she goes back to her corner
With an even thicker wall of
Silence
"You are more than a pretty face"
Sometimes I forget that
Sometimes I forget that I can feel
And think
And cry
Or laugh
I forget to stand tall
With my shoulders back
And my face towards the sky
But I remember that one night
So long ago
And I try to be the person you thought I was then
I used to think
The truth could never fully harm me
Yes it would sting
Or even burn
But the burn would fade
And heal
And leave me whole
Happy with knowing
Then I met you
And created a fantasy world
That I would try to run away from
But I kept being drawn to it
Until I learned the truth
And now your name burns in my mind
It burns my tongue when left unspoken
But also burns when I can speak it
So now all I want
Is to go back
And unlearn the truth
So I can keep running from my fantasy world
Instead of walking through
It's ruins
Drops pour from my hands
Slipping through my fingers
I bleed
I bleed out my soul
My life
Thoughts
Dreams
Fears
Hopes
I bleed all of this
Out into just three words
That I know you cannot return
And that is why they bleed from me
Because with each drop
It burns me
And takes away a small piece of me
And with each word
A thousand drops
Bleed from me
Until after the third word has left my bloodless lips
I am empty
And have bled out everything that I am
And was
And could have been
All for you
I thought my first love would happen in an instant
That it would be more than a spark
But a giant flame burning through me
I didn't think it would be like this
Growing slowly
Like a seed
Needing time to be nurtured
And cared for
To itself be given love
Turning into a giant tree
One that protects me
And covers me fully
I thought my first love woudn't happen
Until I met
Your soul
A lady passes by me
and does not even look
And a man might glance in my direction
But
A small child
Walking by a discarded toy
That is me
Will pick me up
And love me
At least until he grows up
And forgets me
And so I am lost again
But this time I am unseen
And cannot be found
Again
A tiny drop
Can turn into a stream
And then a river
An ocean
It can turn into a giant wave
That swallows you whole
And then it burns
It starts in the center of your head
and slowly drips down
Until there is a line of fire
That ends at your belly button
And circles you
And engulfs you
The fire then freeze's you
So you can not move
And then just when you feel like dying
It turns into a breath
That fills you with life
and then condenses into a single drop
Of you
And then it repeats
All you can do is lay there
And think
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