mmcarlson
the festival is coming soon
we all need to bring out forks and spoons
and see if we can see the moon
wait? is that a shooting star i see?
it looks lonely out there, in the mouth of the sea
i'm on the fence about a lot of things
its been 3 weeks since i first started loving you
day 18, of thinking of you only
i didn't know how time would past, since that first night
i didn't know how i would last
i guess it goes to show, just how fast it looks after you've gone through it
what am i saying. its raining. i should go outside and drown my sins in the angel's tears, wash it all away, come again another day. i've sinned enough to make the rain last for a million days.
below me is something else
i can't quite understand what it is
but its a need, for a better place and time
a better person to share my secrets with
somewhere is a place where i will be at home
no regrets, nothing
i am made of glass
be careful, don't tip me over or i might crack.
sometimes my feelings for you scare me
we stood on the bench, surround by hundreds of people
screaming, cursing, cheering, wishing, breathing, panting, yelling
i was smiling, you have no idea how happy that made me
just to stand next to you, in the middle of all that noise
i was just so happy
you just make me feel like i've never felt
and that scares me, darling. it really does.
i miss you more than anything, you're so close, yet so far.
so, so far away.
everything can be concealed, hidden, but the sun, the moon and the truth
the trees in the graveyard whispered and told me goodbye
polaroid pictures can't deny that all of this is a lie
sing me a lullaby, so soft and so sweet
make me forget about everything
make me live in the moment for once in my life
but you're too far away with nothing to say to me
its ok, actually, its not. i'm stuck with what i've got.
whenever i talk to you, i can't help but smile
i wonder, does my face sparkle as much as i think it does?
can you see just how much i love you?
no, you can't and you never will.
i am sitting ever so still on my window sill
wishing that you were sitting next to me
and that we could sit ever so still together
and not talk. not once. and then i could stare at you, for hours maybe, and watch the stars and the cars and i would know then that everything was perfect.
even if nothing was right, everything would be right because of you.
i wish your face sparkled for me too
everything seems so bland
i just can't- i can't keep moving and breathing and sleeping and eating
and wishing i didn't move and breathe and sleep and eat so much
but the wheels keep going round and the painted ponies go up and down
isn't that what joni said? and i'm tired. but life is just beginning.
no time to slow down and regret what has been best but what has been the most painful and scary and the memories like jagged scars on the dead skin we shed
i want to sit next to a stream with you
and watch lilies drift and dry
we can spy on mother nature as she goes about her duties
fixing up trees and making the flower's dew
i can look at you and see
how beautiful the world actually is
through you, the world printed on your heart
can i leave a mark? i want to. i want to taste you, all of you.
christmas is over
we carved the turkey, tore the wrapping paper, smelled the cookies
memories drifting, smiles lifting and people gifting
though we think the world stands till for one day
it doesn't, life still goes on and churches are bombed
even on the holiest days, hundreds of lives are taken away
and yet, there is nothing left to say
but the empty carols that always get in the way
you beckon me closer in my dreams
i feel your breath and smell your smell
what the hell?
i thought we were done
but everythings gone undone
and i'm not sure what to do
do you want this too?
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