musicalink
your angry voice melts away my happiness.
It hits me like a blast of heat,
pulls me to the ground.
It pulls my hair,
I shook myself awake from my place on my window seat. Not really the most comfortable place to sleep. It had started to snow and the whole yard had been turned into a winter wonderland.
A red sweater sits abandoned in a park. It means nothing to the owner. A fashion accessory, nothing more. It won't be missed, because it can simply be replaced.
time passes slowly
school is extremely boring
it's been a long day
wrapped in broken wings tinged with black,
she chose darkness, didn't believe she could go back.
she thought that once there was blood spilled
all her dreams would be left, unfulfilled.
She huddled under her warm covers at night,
The only place she could cry out of sight.
Everyday she wore a mask of strength,
stopping the tears not a moment to late.
Every night when she gave in and began to weep,
All she could do was sing herself to sleep.
It was the only place she truly felt secure,
as she sang in a voice that was sweet and pure.
As the lyrics began to work there magic,
suddenly, things weren't so tragic.
She could almost believe that things would be okay,
that the world might be more than just black and gray.
Music became her lifeline, the only thing that kept her trying,
it was a want, a need, the only thing that could stop the crying.
I will not bow and let you win.
Your worst nightmares are about to begin.
I won't go down without a fight.
My determination has taken flight.
You can't take from me all that I want.
If that's your choice, it's you I'll haunt.
What you want will only scar,
What you want has taken it way to far.
You never cared and you never will,
Not a thought went to the hearts you'll kill.
"There's no way I'll loose" you thought smugly.
But now, you see, thing must get ugly.
You told to us your deceitful lies,
But you will fall and we will rise.
Soon you'll find this was your worst mistake.
soon the voices of the students will awake.
sometimes I wish that I could fly a rocket to the stars,
never to return.
forget all my pain thats breaking me inside,
becuase for happiness I yearn.
I'm filled with pain, sorrow, want, need
tears that just won't fall,
sometimes it's way too much
I want to forget it all.
Sometimes I see the rocket waiting,
sure that i'm ready to leave.
But through the sound of my sobs I hear hhim.
calling, reaching out to me.
He doesn't want me too leave,
he begs for me to stay.
and now he's the reason why,
my world's no longer gray.
Now I never wish to fly a rocket to the stars,
to Him I must return.
He makes me forget all the pain that's breaking me inside,
And gives the happiness I yearn
All I did was act on reflex.
I didn't think about the results.
But now I'm shadowed in a heavy coat,
of grief knowing that it was my fault.
I know that what I did was wrong.
And that she'll never be the same.
But for you my heart beats it's own song.
And you only have me to blame.
I thought if she was gone,
you would truly love me.
I was blined by my jelousness,
the wrongness I didn't see.
But now I can see your pain.
Those circles under you eyes.
The falseness in your smile
the grief you try to hide.
I know you visit her grave every night.
That you still cry over her death.
But the affection you gave her,
Had taken away my breath.
I was scared of losing you to her.
So getting rid of her was my only choice.
But now I can't bear to hear you,
because grief is what fills your voice.
I had no idea how much pain you would be in.
But I knew you would only have me to blame.
But what I didn't know was that by losing her,
you would never be the same.
I guess it wasn't destiney for me to be with you.
no matter how much I want it to be.
i always dreamed of the day I would be held in your arms,
But, We'll never be together truthfully.
But I want you so bad!
Isn't that enough?
I want to be with you forever!
Even if I have to go up against destiney, fate, and true love.
I can't watch you be you hugged by some else's arms.
I WON'T let you be kissed by someone else's lips.
I can't bare to hear you comforted by someone els's words.
I could barley satnd those few gray clouds, let alone an eclipse!
So please don't go!
I know that I lied!
Even if it's wrong,
isn't it enough that I tried?
I've already lied, and I can do so much more.
I'll do whatever I can to get what I want.
It doesn't matter how tough the trail.
I'll still win. Even if I have to go against destiny fate, and true love.
Every song has a meaning, a story to tell.
A dream, a wish, a death, a love spell
Pain, happiness, sorrow, want and need.
It's all there. It cries and bleeds.
But what you mean to me can never be described.
You're all I ever dreamed of, hoped for
but to get you i lied.
I deceived you, kept you in the dark
so we never has that special spark
you know the one I'm talking about.
the one that means that you're meant to be together
the one that makes you're heart beat and feel light as a feather.
the one that makes you smile no matter the previous pain
the one that has you sitting out there alone in the rain.
But it doesn't matter how much i care
because the way I got you wasn't fair.
because to get you,
I Lied.
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