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In 54 days I will actually be in Manhattan and i could just cry with joy. I havent been to new york in two years and i miss it so much :(
i only have to last until june with these summer classes then i can start packing and pray to God that my mother books these tickets cause i don't want to be there without them.
I can't count on it to be the best time of my life but i'll be happy with the fact that i'm in new york and i'm with my family and nothing is going to change that. My flight is booked and i put in my days off. Now only time will tell. I just need to have faith.
credibility is everything in this world.
In order to get a job you need to know someone. credibility
it makes people trust you. they know you arent a scammer or someone who will rip them off.
once you lose credibility, you've lost it all
Ratings are through the roof!
Ratings don't mean anything at this point...
Are you mad?! Ratings mean EVERYTHING in this business! Without the ratings we are as good as out. Don't be stupid and sentimental now. We've come too far to get caught. Things are going well. Just keep your mouth shut and let me handle the ratings.
Whatever you say. But don't ask me for my rating....
the thoughts that i do want to keep seem to dissolve into a part of brain that cant be retrieved. Yet the things I don't want to remember dance around in a circle chanting all the things I hate about what was said or done. It's a cycle that has yet to be broken and still, may be useful at some point in time.
entrenched in the throes of all that is evil
the first though that comes to mind when i read that word.
go through the trench ! not over it.
dory forgot that part though and she ultimately paid the price for it.
although it was mostly marlins fault
you will be punished for your crimes. treason, murder, theft. i will find one to find you guilty of.
but ma'am why are you doing this? i've been nothing but loyal to you from the first day!
silence! you know wat you've done and i won't stand for it any longer. while it is not legally punishable, i will see to it you are properly dealt with
alcohol is like a plague in my family. it's so common and almost all of the men do it. but it drives me nuts. my father abuses it and then decides to use that as his excuse. he can claim drunk and just spout off whatever crap he wants despite the fact that it may hurt the people around him
its sad that im not even affected by the drunken things he says anymore. his alcoholism just makes me sick.
calamity sounds like calamine lotion to me.
calamity seems to describe my life at the moment.
theres no peace or sense of peace in my life.
all i feel is inner turmoil and struggle.
there seems to be a reaching, like im reaching out towards what will bring me peace or at the least relieve the turmoil inside but it is eluding my grasp to no end
what will bring me this peace though?
oh the precious lamb of God
the lion and the lamb?
silence of said lambs?
i know thats not exactly how you say it
im not thinking just typing. unfortunatly i have to back space cause i can't stand spelling errors. they bug me to no end.
lambs.
lambie?
lambchops
lambchop the lamb ?
now the word lamb looks weird
whoever thought to put m and b together?
weakling... how dare you! i will smite you where you stand. i will make you grovel for every breath you wish to have. i will make you regret everything you once stood for. ha. you are pathetic. you are a weakling. you will amount to nothing. you make me ill. you disgust me
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