ohyegreendragons
the binds I wear
the ones that are supposed to satisfy me
if they do not satisfy others then what is the point?
(I still don't know how to talk about this)
if I give up and remove them
then there are no expectations to try and meet
no 'sirs'
but
I will never be satisfied
...
There are so very many things I don't mention. Can't mention. There are things I never say because I'm scared, things that drive me crazy with the pushpull of wanting someone to nknow, but never wanting anyone to know. those things mean not being Okay, those things mean losing masks and opening up some deep dark frightening part of me... do I want to open those parts up? Do I want people to see? I do... but I really really don't.
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