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The essence you left as you walked by, Reminded me of that moment. The moment we first met, brushed, smiled, The moment I knew I wanted your essence forever.

My ship drifts left, right... surrounded by the darkness of night with no moon or star to steer towards. My compass lies in a pile of shattered glass, and I pray for the morning sun to give me direction.

Why have you masked your feelings for me? You stand there off to the side, looking so distant and indifferent. From your kiss last night, though, I know better.

I don't even remember hearing the officer yell 'Freeze'. Perhaps he did, perhaps it was something he should have said. All I remember is the searing pain in my thigh, the scream of pain from my mouth, and the scraping of my cheek on the ground.

The stumble was in the open for all to see. He tried to recover, regain his composure and pretend it never happened. But they saw. And they laughed. And he felt the heat of shame and embarrassment envelop him when he learned she saw as well.

signs

There are signs that things are coming to a conclusion. Which way will the signs lead me - to the right, away from pain and suffering, or to the left, away from the mediocrity I had embraced for so long as reality.

As I savour the western sky My mind explores the reasons why You turned away and left me here With nothing more than tepid beer.

I am surrounded by thieves that wish to take away every joy and pleasure, and replace them with an emptiness that leaves me in a state of dispair and longing. These thieves... they must be exposed, rejected, pushed aside, surrounded and overcome with love and passion.

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