reindeary
withhold your emotions, don't let them show
if they see, then they will know
if you can't hide it, let them go
her dress was adorned with pearls
her smile adorned with sinister
her hair pinned up in curls
her arm graced a minister
her eyes pierced the room like a sin
and oh that blood red grin
eyes like daggers and nails like blades
her sparkling dress hiding her like shades
he is the sunlight streaming through my window in the morning that spreads warmth across my cheeks
he is the hot cup of coffee with tendrils of steam that wakes me up
he is the wheat toast right from the toaster with the bright berry jam in a layer on top
he is the morning and i am the night
his purpose was to destroy
to build things up and then destroy it, smash it to bits
building up my trust just to wreck it
building up my hopes to tear them apart and break them
building and destroying
playing a game that he always won and i always lost
but it was a kind of addiction, this game, i just couldn't quit
because maybe i liked to lose it
the seasons change but i never do
people change but i stay the same
the world around me is perpetually moving and turning and morphing from one thing to the next
but i, i stay the same
stagnant and stable and apathetically unchanged
I watched her stir the dough, I'd like to think that she really wanted to make a nice breakfast for everybody but I knew that baking was just something to keep her busy. She had to keep her mind off of it--off of everything. Suddenly the ball of sugar and butter was the most important thing to her and nothing else mattered. I didn't want to be the one to snap her out of the trance and remind her of what happened. Who was I to infringe on her lackadaisical mood? Isn't ignorance bliss? But I'm sure feigned ignorance isn't counted in that saying.
it's too late for you to come on your white horse in the silver armor to sweep me off my feet and carry me off into the sunset
it's too late for you to take back everything you said
it's too late to help me, now
it's too late
too late
too late
not soon enough
did i forget to mention the way your eyes light up when you see the sky
did i forget to mention how much i love your laugh and how you tilt your head to the side when you smile
did i forget to mention how much i love the tinkling of your laughter when you think something's really funny
well
if i did,
i'm mentioning them now
i thought when you said forever, you really meant it
but i guess forever is a really long time, you know?
i never really thought you could outlast forever, but i hoped you would
but you didn't
i thought when i said i'd be fine, i really meant it
but i guess being fine is hard when you lose someone you love so much, you know?
i never really thought i'd have to be without you, i hoped you'd stay
but you didn't
his presence was like a flame slowly inching towards a stream of gasoline
he ignited something within me that i never knew was there until he was
he brought me alive and i never even knew i was dead
he made black and white into technicolor
his presence was like fire and i was ice, melting at his touch
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