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I looked up at the eagle, free as the wind, flying in the sky. An overwhelming sense of underachievement flowed through me and I wished more than anything that the eagle soaring above would have pick me up with its talons and take me somewhere I had never been before.
As I lay on my front yard, I think about all the things I did during the summer. I think about Thomas, of all things, but not the bad memories. I think about the ease with which I was able to talk to him. I think about all the good things that defined our relationship. All the hard times be damned.
I look at the pills in my hand. My only source of happiness for what seems like an eternity. My mind-numbing friend. My only friend. A seedling of a thought begins to form in my mind: What if I were to take just one too many? Would this numbness transform into the dark bliss I truly want-I truly need? Would I be able to disappear into oblivion?
I feel like I'm losing control. Nothing on this planet ever goes right. My heart is beating a million miles a second and the light in this room is so excruciatingly bright that I can't even think. What has become of my life? Just yesterday I felt like I had everything under control. Now look at me! I have wings, antennae and everything else is being pulled out from underneath me.
"I can't believe I finally found it!" Christian yells from his lab. "The missing wavelength!" Christian has been searching for years upon years trying to figure out a way to see through walls-among other things.
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