therosesbloom
I have given you everything, dear. Everything and more. You have torn my heart from my chest a thousand times over, and yet I would crawl around and pick up the tattered shreds, and shove them back into your broken hands. I guess it's safe to say I love you. And hate you. But mostly, it's just love.
He used to be honest to me. Well, that was before I found that letter. But I dont really want to talk about that. And then there's me. I've tried so hard to be as perfect as i can, but I've hidden stuff too. I've lied...we've all lied. I remember when my angel told me that everything would be okay. He told me he loved me too, but that was another lie. Maybe that's all there is to it. Lies.
Lust...it seeped into my veins and made it impossible to say no. I still remember the way you looked at me with those damned blue eyes. Like I was the only thing in the world worth seeing. And when you held me against your chest, crushing me and kissing me..I'll never forget those days. While I hope I forget you, because you were a demon and a curse, I will never forget the way you loved me, or the way I wanted you to stay.
Who has these anymore? That stupid bitch. Every time I see her on facebook I just want to bitch at her, scream in her fucking face. It's like she thinks that just because she met him first, just because she knew him longer, she has some prior claims to him. Well I have news for you, hunny. When he promised me forever, you werent in the picture.
It's like I've been locked up in this cell, waiting for you to come set me free. Every time I see you through the bars, I reach out to you, reach out for your hand. But you just turn and leave. You're the reason I'm still trapped here. Rotting. Dying. Alone.
There were two words on the chalk board: Cellar Door. He said that of all the endless combinations of words in the English language, no two sounded as beautiful as Cellar Door.
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