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so i stopped
and the world paused
and i pressed it to my lips
the relief;
if only for a moment
felt enough to last forever
eternity
just you and me
i swear if you let it
we could always be
so much more than
from what the external seems
something way beyond my belief
or anyone elses
its like i just can't help it
something outside of reality...
you make my heart
feel something undescribeable
side burns
body yurns
for something more
to see what we'll have instore.
i thought i had integrity
but when i allowed you to come over
like nothing happened
i knew...
that seriously i've lost
all respect i thought i had
ever had; for myself.
it's really not my fault
if i think about it, i can't help
it -- how i feel
even though i know
this isn't real.
my mind has wound up lost
among the starsin the galaxy
i try not to be
what i suppose i've began to seem
you've been entagled in me
touched my mind and soul with your spirituality
beyond my wildest dreams
surpased what i'm able to believe
too bad i'm still unable
to show you what you truly mean
to me.
however you look at it
it's messed up
and although there's nothing
that I'm capable of changing
I know
that this is going to eat me up inside
for quite a long time
and i don't know
if I'm even prepared for all of this
it was completely on a whim
but i don't know why
i felt something so deep within
with every touch
of every limb
with ever kiss
of your every trim
i think i'm in love.
that's where i spent most of my time
and maybe that's why i am the way
i am
always keeping my head in the books
skipping school to go to the library
and maybe thats the problem these days
there isn't enough of a challenge.
So old and useless
Tarnished from so much abuse
With no type of appreciation
To this day, when things
Maybe, might have mattered
Instead they're torn
Completely shattered
What would you have rather?
When it's completely
Just the same dumb pattern
the snow was fluttering
the wind whispered
and i tip toed
every inch to the altar
and realized
this moment
in all of it's perfection
just wasn't for me
this moment
wasn't for me..
at all.
at this point
i dont even think
that your company's
cheap ass paperclips
could hold the pages
of our story together
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