KitKat18
My heart cries while I sit in the dark
I can't feel emotions and I have given up
My cold heart is dormant
And I have to where to go
The light shines but I refuse to show
As I sit in the dark I think about my life
The knife up high and the pain grows
But all of a sudden God saves my life
Now all of the hurt barely shows
love
infinity
endless
powerful
anything
confidence
imagination
possibilities
impossible
strong
They fly past my face
I don't know if I can win this race
The one with the bullets is around here somewhere
This is far yet my worst nightmare
His shadows creep around me
Like a slithering serpent
I heard the shot of the bullet
Felt the blood streaming
Right then and there, I knew I lost the race.
I am an outsider.
People look at me differently.
I feel like I am trapped inside of a cage
that has no way of getting out.
My rage is getting stronger everyday.
I see other people pout,
but as for me,
I am an outsider and that is no doubt.
The possibilities are endless
I'm running but have no where to go
Will I survive or will my spirit haunt the graveyard?
My blood rushes like the White river
All alone in this untrustworthy boat
The sun shines but there is still a hover of gray
Will this be my last day?
heaven
jesus
protectors
guardians
my best friend: angel
wings
halo
spirits
loud
fireworks
4th of july
guns
hunting
dynomite
red white and blue
usa
black
hard
skillet
campfire
country
late nights
bonfires
biscuits and gravy
eggs
bacon
family
grease
stove
camping
black
bacon
grease
eggs
chef
skillet
country breakfast
camping
campfire
iron pan
deer meat
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