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accomplishments are accomplishments no matter how small. Every is relative to you, but not a self centered egocentric way. what you do for yourself and for others is major. Good or bad. Big or small. Always do major big goods and try to make small bads as minor as possible.
These past few months. These past couple years. These past lifetimes. you've shown me what it feels like to be a prisoner. To be trapped in a hell that I had little choice in. I don't know what I've done to deserve what you do and I won't apologize. But in the next few weeks, it's going to take alot of power not to show you how far you've pushed me.
Today's feeling of freshness comes from the wind blowing powerfully through the midnight air. Yes, midnight means it's tomorrow already. I hope for a blustery day so often associated with multicolored dead leaves, apples and pumpkins. I hope to be outside to experience hot coffees and single cigarettes with someone I care about, walking down a side street in suburban long island. Inhale.
these walls are so thick and heavy. there's no way I can break through them. I just lost 6 years of my life in a matter of hours. staying here cooped up in these walls these walls these walls I can't do it I can't do it I can't do it. I feel so empty and lost. I feel so empty and lost. and dead. trapped and trapped and trapped and trapped there's no way out there's no way out.
we sit here dully looking for answers in our lives with no knowledge that whoever is out there looking back at us does not intend to help you. We stare at the stars and the oceans and the dirt and the grass thinking that therein lies something profound but in fact, it's just what it is. grass, dirt, ocean, stars. Project yourself into these bodies of life and you'll see nothing new there. Only yourself. Everything you knew glazed over your eyes like an epiphany. But it's not.
despite all of our differences, the tiny similarities we have are what keep us all together. I look at you and you look at me. We both have 2 eyes and a nose. We both have mouths. And they're capable of saying I love you.
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